weird things happen

when people say, "you have an unpredictable life ahead of you," they are not joking.

who knows how everything is going to turn out in the end? nothing is indisputable. nothing is definite. none. nada.

how are we supposed to go on with our chosen path? how do we expect what is going to come out? what made we think our plan will work as we thought it would? what made us so certain that something bad will happen? or won't happen?

it doesn't matter eventually anyway.

you just live it. and have some positive attitudes. put a smile and do whatever you have to do. as you get overwhelmed, rewind. repeat. reach the point when you just cannot take it anymore. rewind. repeat.

don't forget to put the smile.

along the path, weird things happen. you begin to question everything you believe in. you start to be a rebel out of the robotic you. the ordinary you. you probe your point of view and see from different perspectives. examine your life. look at the people around you. say hi. say goodbye. do things. undo things.

in the end, it doesn't matter anyway.

but you keep going. you look at your feet as you walk forward. tap. tap. tap. tap. make sure you avoid obstacles or you might as well face it right up front. get everything done. rewind, repeat.

"the more i know you the more i feel like i know nothing about you, mil."

maybe they are right. maybe i do need to change. maybe i don't.

weird things happen. good, bad. as it goes, feel stressed, feel happy. be composed, be unsettled. get overwhelmed. be nice to people. be honest and have a great time getting through what is ahead. be random and do not care. do not frown. you can put a tired look, or a surprised look, or a fake smile but do not frown. never.

for now, you just face it. have your coffee mug ready, have your medicine capsules ready. and face it. sure, it's unpredictable.

but it doesn't matter in the end anyway.