could i have been?

could i have been what i've dreamt to be? no dissapointments, no envies, no self-blames, no whatsoever?

could i have been more than my old man? as he has wished me to be, as i have wished me to be?

could i have been anyone other than me? erasing my past, getting a bigger life, making a difference?

could i have been not seeing today? perhaps to freeze the moment, to not looking back, to not looking forward?

could i have been the everything? and i mean the everything, as in every single thing?

could i have been stop questioning all? would my life would be easier, would i enjoy my life better, would i smile wider?

could i have been accepting the faith? be care less with the grunts, be care less with the lies, be care less with the denials?

could i have been a better man? i might not know what would that means, but could i be that?

could i have been lost under the ground? forget the world above, forget everything i've done, and never come back?

could i have been skipping these scenarios? throw them, ignite them, and pretend they never exist?

could i have been true to myself? do i know how to be true to myself?

could i have been anyone other than me?

*inspired by dave matthews band's dancing nancies