Friday, July 08, 2005
things that i realize more and more every single day
- people are selfish
- people are very selfish.
- i am very, overly, unduly selfish, that sometimes i'm plain sick of myself for not being able to do much about it.
- most of the time, we have to agree to disagree (perhaps the hardest to accept).
- it's not the easiest thing in the world to defend your beliefs. i've been having hard times justifying the rationales behind me not eating swine meat to my friends—you can imagine how it's even harder trying to justify the entire concept of a religion, especially when it's been harhly and extensively associated with such negative perceptions.
- hell, i don't even know whether i should really believe what i believe. i've spent most of my life in a biased world, afterall.
- as much as i hate to acknowledge this, i am nothing but a spoiled brat. spoiled spoiled spoiled. never before have i felt so much shame admitting this fact.
- i also don't know if it's still the right thing to be an idealist.
- it's difficult to argue over abstract values of life when your knowledge upon them isn't enough to even convince yourself.
- even more difficult when you know your own bias.
- my future is bleak.
